My psychologist said to me... "you are finally human and feeling emotions other than anger"
Something i already knew... Anger doesn't hurt as much as other emotions.

Never knowing what it felt like, makes it less painful.

Feels like that one person seems to read me like a book. Not just any book, but as if he wrote it himself. That's how well.
Find it scary at times, being i have spent so much of my life, keeping those inner most feelings, fears and weaknesses hidden. Now exposed, not to everyone, but just him.
Life, relationships and situations can be difficult in ways that can make something so wonderful, not likely possible to last.
So there is a part of me that wishes this connection had ever happened. Never knowing what it felt like, makes it less painful.